answer me.

it's nearing the end of 2010. I'm just left speechless that time really pass this fast. Ups and downs scattered throughout this year, but I'll just take the good times with me towards the future. Not to be greedy. This will be my last post of 2010, and I'm just left wondering about this question.

As you guys know... I have been trying to build up my body. And there was this faithful day that while I was running along the park connector, I questioned myself.

Why did I started jogging?

Because I wanted to get into better shape.

Why do I want to get an improved figure?

So that I will look nice.

Why do I want to look good?

So that I can be attractive to the opposite sex.

Why do I want to appear gorgeous infront of the opposite gender?

I want the best girlfriend there is, hot, smart, rich, gentle. The perfect one. The star.

So... why do I want such a girlfriend?

That question is unanswered. I really don't know the key to that question. I'm really clueless.....


Forget about those senseless QA. Well, I did lost weight and much fitter now. Able to run 10km straight without stopping. Accomplishment much for this fat boy here? Hahaha. Shall stop here. God bless you guys!

As the saints go marching in

I just did one of the craziest thing in my life, and since I still have some energy, might as well blog about it before going to bed. Nono, the bbq wasn't the main thing, but the so called hike was. Well, it was midnight already and the trains had already halted their service. So the only way we could go home was to take a cab, which is super ex and they charge 50% more.

Haha, but I think it was me, who suggested the idea of walking from pasir ris back home. Since me, Ben, Zhe Min lives quite close to each other. Worth giving it a shot. Planned a route at costa sands and started our journey. Seemingly an impossible task, but it turned out to be an achievable one. I'm finally home at 5am, while we started the journey at 12+. But you guys are the bomb bomb bomb! Haha, we were just talking about life, money, snsd, girls, sex throughout the walk, so we never got bored. Hehe.

Well, the bbq was okay. Not fantastic or not too bad. Won't elaborate on it. X'mas in a day?! But I still haven't got my church mates any gifts. Shit shit shit! But I just hope they won't blame me or anything, since I'm a newcomer. Just hope so... Shall sleep now. Legs aching like there's no tomorrow. Garh! See ya. Have a blessed merry x'mas!

Buy yourself a motivation

Almost an end to another week, damn it. Ventures meeting today, and we went over to XM's house to do one of our VSS components, which is Home economics. You must be thinking, 'WAH, sure pass one lah!' Well, not exactly. I only passed a miserable 3/7 of the section, garh! Went back home to learn ironing from my mom, thanks mom! But oh well, the rest did well and I'm sure we will be able to get our VSS by the end of 2011. Come on guys! Let's get that Bronze/Silver that we had targeted. And I'm feeling uselss as a Vice-chairman. I am always not assigned tasks or anything, but it might just all change when recruitment starts ba. Haha. So I shall just lepak for a while.

Photos from Seoul Garden on 16 December 2010:

 

Okay, I think I have done enough for this blog tomorrow. Have church service early in the morning tomorrow, better get to bed now. Shall blog soon.

 

Homecoming

Happy birthday Mom! Hope you had a good on yesterday. :) Got myself a G-SHOCK too. Used up like 1/3 of my pay from SITEX, but bleh... It's a watch I've been wanting to get since the start of the year. So yeah. Haha. Sexy right? Woo.

 

Now, I've been stressing over my body. Like how will I be able to get girls if I have a lousy body. (Okay, not that bad lah, but still.) I mean, I know I'm already good in character. (You all know that I'm friendly and gentlemantly. Don't deny.) So, if I am really able to lose some fats and get a slimmer body, I'm sure those packs will come knocking on the door sooner or later. I smell it. For the past few weeks, I've been jogging. So committed to an extent that I tripped during one of my night run. Ouch! Now I'm scared it will leave a scar. :(

Wow, and sometimes. I no longer hate the feeling when you go back home. Because it usually signals the end of the day for you. Not anymore. I rather love being at home now. Being together with my family. Haha. Watching football with my dad and chatting with my mom. I'm not sick or having a fever. I am just a changed boy.

Should be more fun tomorrow, seoul garden with the VLC. Can't wait. And recruitment for the ventures is still stressing me out. Argh!

elevator goes up,

If you have been wondering why I haven't been blogging for so long, it's because my IBM broke down. So I just got a new HP notebook and decided to update the blog since I'm abit bored. O levels are over and holidays have started already. Had grad night, sitex and a lot lah, can't remember. Will try to put everything into one post.


Grad night 2010. Yes! I've finally graduated from SASS, but mixed feelings though. Happy that I am able to switch into a new environment, but sad that I will miss everything. The atmosphere, the friends, the teachers, the malay store. I love them all. 4S1 is the dynamite too, we have all the talents and stuff, from sports to books. Some how, we are just sort of not being very united. That's what I find sad luh. But still an enjoyable class.

 Credits to JJ.

Credits to Sam Ow. Your breakdancing never sucks! Just mesmerizing. :)

Sitex 2010. Haha, it was a good experience, considering this was the first time I am working in such an event. And I guess I did pretty well too for a first-timer. Acer under Courts. I had wonderful colleagues. From Adam(big boss), Marcus(Manager), Juliano(Yandao and joker), Yumseng(The guy that is always so friendly), JiaJun(You should know), Rizwan(Mat!), Natalie, Paul and the cashier(Pumpkin, since I can't remember her name and she is always slacking behind the counter). We are just damn funny lah, whenever we're bored we will mock Natalie. Like talking about her sales ability being proportional to the length of her skirt. Then one day we even mentioned asking her to wear a bikini. Alot of sick jokes. Even my boss was staring at her. And all the swearing we did to each other. :) Good experience, nice to know these lads. I also do hope to work with them again for next year's show too. 

I also recently went to sunday service for the first time. Went to TPMC, which is glen's church. Rather awkward at the start, but he told me to calm down and treat it like I'm going to my girlfriend's birthday party, with many people I don't know. So okay. Everyone is quite nice luh, never guailan me or stuff. But I'm not sure myself whether should I resume this.... I'm loving my way of life now. But if I resume service, I will have to change my ways. I can't afford to have sick thoughts anymore, I can't afford to be the self-centered person which I think I am. There are many negatives about me. Hmmm, maybe I will be a church whore for this period, like go to different churches every week. Then see how lor.

Ventures retreat. FUCK SIAH! Yes, I'm the freaking vice-chairman now. I was happy at the start, but when assigned to being mostly in charge of recruitment. I began to have second thoughts. I just hope I can pull through lah. Must live up to expectations. Urgh, this is more stress than O lvls. FUCK. Must just face the fact, I will defeat this challenge. YEAH!

That's all I can think of. I'm tired. There's still retreat tomorrow. Shag shag shag. Off for now. Bye.

The days of old have dowered us
With gifts beyond all praise,
Our Father make us faithful
To serve the coming days.

Science Practical

Sci practical gone! 15% gone. Well, so what? This day will only spur me even harder for the next 3 weeks. I don't care if it's 25% or 50% gone, I am a magician that will make that A1 appear under comb science for 'O' levels.

But I still have that thought everyday: 'What if I don't make it into SAJC'

Goodbye SA!

Haha, I think it's the word 'f**k' that got everyone pumped up. Watch the video! It's really good.


Time sure flies. And my love for SA will never be extinguished.
Thank you SA.
Thank you Mrs Charles, and may you have good health. You're such an inspiration to everyone. 
Thank you teachers.
Thank you 4S1' 10. <3
Thank you Scouts. <3


6 more days to 'O' level practical, can count with my fingers already, but I'm not really anxious or what. What I find strange is, I'm still not worried about the 'O', other than my English and Humanities. VENICE, PLEASE DON'T COME OUT! Anyway, maybe it is because I have covered everything in my syllabus. Have been getting 80+ for every mock test, which really boosted my confidence. I just hope almost everyone in 4s1 can make it to SAJC, and that includes me too.


Ohoh, anyway I heard a joke on radio recently.




Let's start. 






Which mouse stands on two legs?














If your answer is Mickey Mouse, you're right!
















Next, which dog stands on two legs?
















If your answer if Goofy, you're on a streak!
















Next, which duck stands on two legs?


















Donald duck, I guess?




















Actually, ALL DUCKS STAND ON TWO LEGS.




















I bet I gotcha! 




















Admit it. 




















Don't lie to yourself. :)
















Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time
It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
(Green Day - Good Riddance)


Bye, going to study history now. Will try to update soon.

Like, OMG

I don't fear the 'O' levels.

Countdown: 22 days.

What if....

What if I screw up my 'O' levels?


29 MORE DAYS!

Time is running out.

Countdown: 31 days.

Prelims 2010

English: D7
E-Maths: A2
A-Maths: A2
POA: A1
Science: A2
Humanities (SS/Hist): C5
Chinese: C6


L1R5: 19


Prelim results out this week. Not at all satisfied, even though I managed to see everything improve with the exception of Humans. English is still the same, haiz.. Just praying to god and doing SJJ's work every single day. Hopefully a miracle will come knocking and I get the desired B4, the very least. Big time careless mistakes for both Maths, should have easily gotten an A1. Oh well. POA is brilliant, C6 in MYE to A1 in Prelim, quite a fairytale but I can't stay complacent. Just hope I can maintain the A1. Fuck Science, got 6.5/15 for chem prac and messed it up, A1 gone! Other than that, should be okay. Humans ah humans.... just want an a2/b3 for prelims, focus more on SBQ!


39 more days to 'O' level written papers. This is all I have. 10 points is basically achievable and I'm going to get that, because whatever I want, I will get it.

50

YOG was awesome. Hopefully Singapore can host such events again, where there will be hot ang mohs and all. ( I'm missing them already! ) Went for football finals and closing ceremony with my jrs. It was my first live football match and the atmosphere was simply priceless, even though there were only thousands of spectators. I just can't ask for more. Even an emma watson lookalike was sort of ermm.. staring at me while the match was going on. Wanted to wave back but uh, fuck it, the boyfriend was just beside her. Now to closing ceremony, it was quite a short ceremony and was kinda sad when the fire was extinguished. The fireworks was good, but my stupid camera phone can't take good shots. Someone buy me a dslr please.


Yes, prelims were over quite long ago. Just waiting for my results, which will most probably be out by latest the week after? I won't say I did well because I just slacked abit just before the prelims due to complacency. I even nearly screwed my spa, luckily Glen signaled to me my mistake in the midst of the practical. If not, I would surely fail. Don't talk about Physics, it was just too easy that I can say good bye to my A1. Maybe because I had been concentrating too much on the tough questions taught by Gordon Goh. Saw my emaths paper 1 marks on ntrix, I freaking got 66. Like wtf?! I should be getting 70 at the very least. Hais, screw my compass for breaking. 6 marks just flew like that, pooi!


End of term wasn't very end of term after all. When everybody was cheering, I only thought to myself: 'This marks the beginning of the end'. Tomorrow will be my last day of self-declared holiday, and after that, it's all or nothing. Just 50 days more. Add oil! Haven't been doing any work for the past week. Watched step up 3-d, salt and inception. I think step up 3-d is the best, considering the lead actress is super duper hot! Went to gym, swimming and cage this week. Trying hard to keep fit because I freaking gained like 5 kg in the space of 3 months? Okay, I want to stop here. So tired.


You may delay, but time will not.

Deja vu?!

Okay, amaths paper 2 ended today, can say it was pretty easy since I was able to do all the questions, hopefully there isn't any careless mistakes. Two more papers, including a Practical, quite confident about Physics and Prac so, no worries. Well, it's been two weeks into the Prelims and I do feel abit worn out, maybe I've stressing too much lately. I should really take a break, yeah until I know all my Prelim results. After the last prelim paper, I would just sit back and enjoy a 'vacation', guess I really need it before I hit top gear.


Well, today was erm... boring, I suppose. Got home at like 12 after talking cock after our amaths, so was feeling pretty shag and tired. So showered, and played DotA. I really want to quit DotA now, since the last time I play was like last year, and I had big time trouble quitting it. It's like a super hot model asking you to have a one night stand, simply irresistible. The sound effect and all, haha, screw! Never mind, after my 'vacation' I will stop.


Other than DotA today, tried to study Physics, even though my paper is on Thursday but I have 2 yog things to attend, so cramp abit. Tried studying at 7pm, managed to study for an hour, decided to take a break at my comp, and then Ben and Jeric told me about this Hostage Crisis, so happily spent half an hour watching the live broadcast. Procrastinate. After watching, went back to study, half an hour, efficient. Break at the comp, and they asked me to DotA, I told you, resisting DotA is really that tough. I wanted to say no at first, but on second thought, fuck it! Played 3 games in a row, and wow, it's fucking 2 am. DAMMIT! A day wasted, oh well.


Yew Yong, please.. stop getting off focus! Excited about Salt tomorrow. And yeah, NO SCHOOL FOR TOMORROW AND WEDNESDAY, SUCKERS!

Praise the lord!

C6 for Cheena! Successful English oral yesterday. Guess my prayers were answered. Praise the Lord! =D

pictures to burn.

Longgggggggggggg weekends up ahead, and last ndp celebration with school tomorrow. You must be asking why am I blogging at this period of time, when everybody if mugging their ass off. Hmm, maybe because I just procrastinated for 10 minutes on bed, and that 10 slowly increased to an hour! Got abit tired, and eventually called it a day. Haha, a day wasted like that.... I only did graphs for an hour. Oh wells, just make up for it tomorrow. But after this, I will just go under my bedsheets, and count some ducks and sheeps. (that's if i can't sleep)


Went to nando's' on tuesday, since it was a halfday. Have to say food was pretty good, just that the service sucks bad. Well, everything was fine till the part when we asked for our bills. We did not asked once, not twice, not thrice, okay this is getting uncountable, but quite alot of times that we were quite annoyed, wasted like 20 minutes while waiting. Then there was this old Australian couple that just came in and took the seats next to us, they looked at us, but I pretend I didn't know they were looking, and the Aussie lady spoke, asking us 'are you waiting to place your orders?' I of course said 'waiting for bills'. So, she sort of told us, 'if they do not want to collect your bills, leave! this is customer rights'. And when one waiter came, they asked 'why such lousy service?' But eventually we paid our bills not too long after. Haha, the couple was sure funny. Aussie ladies are sure scary! :S

MINE!

Ben's, I SHOULD HAVE ORDERED THE CHIPS! DAMN IT!

Ketchup and Garlic

Got my class t-shirt quite a while ago, it's like super nice! Nike somemore. Woo, sexy! <3

Last but not least, XUAN MING WAKE UP!

Credits to Ben for photos.

10

last stretch of this shit.

this is my 'world cup'.

i know i can do this.

i have failed many times, but this will be the time i will prevail.

confidence is in me.

destroy prelims, then destroy o levels! 

1% Inspiration, 99% Perspiration.

the truth

it's all becoming a norm.

what if all this comes down to nothing?

would it be just a waste of my time?

is this just one of the biggest mistakes im making in my life?

fear.

Orange.

'Finish what you start, tears of joy are made of sweat.'

First post for term 3. Everything is pretty fine so far. Chinese Oral is over, but kind of screwed up. Shocking topic to discuss, it was about why do people take pictures of others when they are not doing something nice in public. So eventually I had to shit my way through. Teacher don't look very convinced, not a pretty good sign, but oh wells. LC will be my last hope, I DON'T WANT TO RETAKE.

Anyway, can say my holidays were fun, the overnights, the world cup, the mugging, the outings, the girls, and the blah blah blah! But sadly all good things have to come to and end. It's halfway through the second week, and I feel my momentum is not here yet. That motivation, sadly missing. I need it back, asap. Because this is make or break. Perseverance! Come on! I have an A-maths test this friday, and I am using that gauge how am I doing. I know I can get full marks for it, easily, no sweat. So let's see whether I will get that. Haha. Prelims, together with English Oral in slightly more than a month, CHIONG AH!

I don't know how to add on, but what I find most cool during the holidays is that my friendship with others have strengthen way lot. Like we weren't even close at all, until the holidays. I don't care what made us better friends, but just find it a blessing that the people around me are awesome. I may have lost some, but I gained some. 


What else... OH! I so never gonna live in a big house after watching paranormal activity. Holy shit, even if I'm very rich, HELL NO! Even if it I am living with a hot wife, still a HELLO NO because it will just turn into an even worse situation. Haha.


Okay, I want to stop here. I want to 'O' level to end quick! I want to play soccer. I want to go gym three times a week. I want to get a job. I want to get a new comp. I want to get a new phone. I want to eat more food. I want to sleep till 12pm everyday. I want to find a girlfriend. I WANT TO ......... 


Bye. <333333

Haha, look at what I was drinking. (:

Shout by Shout

It's been nearly 2 weeks since the last post and sorry, just don't have the mood to go to blogging, even though quite a number of fun things happened recently. Anyway, shall keep this post super short since I'm studying now. Got a new skin for the blog, which I think is pretty decent, since its simple. Haha. I think I finally got into the mood, able to control myself, even though there is like world cup going on. Yes! There was like soccer and outings recently, quite fun, but lazy to talk about it. Oh well, just don't have the mood to blog, sorry! And if I said any hurtful words or anything to any of you, sorry because I'm not in a very good mood these days. Cheers! 

Let's go ENGLAND!

It's party in South Africa!

Once every 4 years and we are just 2 days away from it. Woot! Haha, but .... my dad didn't subscribe. Looking at the good side, there wouldn't be any distraction from 'Operation Six' and I get more sleep. So no more panda eyes, yeah! To the bad side, I will feel left out when everybody will be talking about the matches and I have to wait for another good 4 years. Maybe I would have died by then, but I noticed a pattern quite long ago. The people that are in the 1994 batch are unlucky, well I will elaborate if you don't understand a thing. In 2002, we don't know shit about soccer, in 2006, we were having our PSLE, in 2010, we will be having 'O' level, and in 2014, NS! Ahh, how bad can this be? Haha.


Holidays.. very productive so far. Finished POA revision and now to Emaths. Oh, and if you don't know what's 'Operation Six', it is actually an operation to get six points! Haha. Get it?! Ohoh, and I made my own timetable, cool enough?

Okay, moving on to today. Eh, went to gym at 11, very productive session. Maxi and Joseph then joined me and then we left at 1 to meet Ben. Had lunch together and met Valen and Cass. So from then on, everything is confusing, its like you two will never be happy. I don't know how to say it, maybe because I have more pimples than before or you don't like my singlet that make you two cold. Its just me, surely, I was just being myself, no acting cool or cute or whatever screwed up shit there is in this world. I'm not angry or anything, just sad. I think this will be my last outing with you all, haha, looking forward to outings with my jc or poly mates. I don't want to spoil the fun because I'm around. I'm just an extra. So, if you are happy that this will be my last outing with you all, good for you, salutes to you and gossip all you want. I just want to say thank you.



She's Sizzling!!! Haha. Great 'Hey Soul Sister' cover!


Okay, shall stop here. There's chem tomorrow, screw!

6 pointer motivation!

'A rotten apple is not worth keeping, feed it to the pokemons' - Jeric Kwan.

Okay, glad its temporary freedom for the moment. But might have to retake Chinese, but this time it will be CLB. Sort of screwed up my paper 1. Well, thats if I don't pass. There's still oral and listening, hopefully those two will be my savior. Haha. Extra lessons here and there, but it's helping, so I won't talk about it, since only the graduating students are having lessons in school and there are no pests running along the corridor. So I had a talk with my cousin, he sort of got 12 points last year, but he only started mugging two weeks before the real thing. And he told me O level is something to enjoy, and if I am consistent on my work, 6 points wouldn't be a problem.  Well, I can agree on that, so thats where I got my motivation from. Haha .Holiday wouldn't be very holiday too, its time I really start putting back the broken pieces. Haha. Realised I was quite a ' No Action Talk Only ' all this while.

Well, I sort of pasted this on my desk, to keep this as a reminder,  my targets!!!

Okay, I'm putting a list of stuff to do during the holidays, here goes:

1. Finish and update Humans note.
2. Finish Physics Syllabus.
3. Do Emaths tys.
4. Perfect Organic Chem.
5. Revise for POA.
6. Revise Amaths.
7. Finish my Steven Gerrard Autobiography.
8. Body-kong session, thrice a week! 

Sorry but if you don't mind, I have to work for my six points, so bye! Haha.

Lady Luck, be with me on 31 May.

Haha, end of term was today, but it was the first time I didn't get too happy and excited about it. Rather weird. When everyone are like, 'Yes! June Holidays!' We are like ' Fuck, 4 more days to O levels?!' Maybe I will pass, maybe I will fail. If I want to pass, hopefully the SOS I sent to Lady Luck was heard. Haha. Please please please, I just want to scrape through, and get one subject off my chest. But if I fail, I accept, because I don't think last minute hard work will do. Blame myself. I brought myself into this mess, and hopefully I will get myself out of it.


Oh, and got back my result slip, was like damn bad. I think I can kiss SAJC goodbye and hello to SRJC at this rate. Haha. L1R5: 29, class position: 7, level position: 81. fml. It's like a big mountain to climb to reach my goal. Haiz, just try my best lor, if I'm fated to be stupid, then I will land in SR. Haha.


Guess the next few nights will be sleepless ones, random thoughts will just appear. No going out, or anything. But I actually wanted to go for troop camp this year, like it's at Punggol,  and I can actually sleep in an air-con room if I went, since I'm a venture already. Haha. But, I sort of lost interest in Ventures, maybe I will just pledge myself to my new CCA in the future and snub Ventures. Everything have to end one day. Okay, guess I have nothing else to say, just that my next post should be after Chinese 'O'. ALL THE WAY!  加油！

Do I really look like a gay and a smoker?

Where is the love?

No words can match my feelings right now, but this is such a big matter I have to blog this down. When I am up high with confidence, you have to pull me down. Of all people, it have to be you. But fact is, I never like you. Reasons are many, but I'm not saying any here. I had such a good day until you have to blow it off. Guess a least you deserve is a thank you right? I'm already putting my best effort to make sure everything is going well but you have to demoralise me. That isn't cool. I have to applaud you, or maybe treat you to an expensive restaurant , you broke my deadlock of crying. Well, believe it or not, it's the third time this year and I'm starting to think it is natural to cry. What's worse? My parents saying I am being sensitive about this, haha. Even Jesus will side with me. Well, I think there's a positive side of this, my hate towards you have given me the motivation to beat you. Thrash is a much better word. Because I know at the end of the day, it will all pay off and you will be crawling towards your dad in tears. Not me. Fuck you.


Yeah, I had been mugging my ass off for Chinese, which is good. And everything is quite positive so far, but paper 2 is still quite a bitch. I am finding the momentum, I know my breakthrough is coming at any moment and at the right time. All I can say is screw all the negative thoughts, I WILL PASS. I KNOW I CAN. CAN CAN CAN! Miss Wong, sorry but I will be your 'boyfriend' for the next week. Haha.


I just have no motivation to blog. Well, I was wondering what is love for the past few days? Is it just about sex? Or what? I want to feel it. But when? Or never?

Oh, and Inter won the Treble! YAY!

Okay, I feel much better after blogging this down. :)

District 13.

I don't know. I was too lazy to think of a title. And I'm tired, so I will keep this post a short one. Exams are over, but Chinese 'O' is 16 days away. I'm not nervous, just anxious. I don't want to think too much about the result. I want to slack till Monday, and then hardcore Chinese intensive kicks in. Oh, and this post isn't from a 15 year old anymore, its a 16 year old. Yes, I've aged. So what? I can watch NC16 movies and I did just that on Wednesday. My first NC 16 show, district 13 was okay... Now looking forward to M18. Haha.

Urm, the ticket. My camera sucks, so the lousy quality.

Is it just me or does Jeric look like Benjamin Koh here?

 Uh, and Benjamin Ng is gay, he freaking took a blackmail photo of me. But gym session was fun yesterday though. But was spoiled by some guy who was PMSING. He was like ' how long more do you need for the bench?' I said 'I do one more set.' He replied with the same question. How retarded is he? And he threw tantrums, he was throwing the weights everywhere. I am not going to say anything else about that guy. Haha. And today's soccer was fun. Top scorer today. So Benjamin, it's just not about you being the best here, it's about me too. And my specs bent, whacked 3 times by Ben and Joseph in the face. Ohoh, and I find basketball fun. Haha, maybe I will try it after 'O' but I can't seem to study at home. Even the bed is so distracting, there are like soft toys here andthere and I'm tempted to play with it. Screw myself.

Tell me how study?

Okay lah, I'm lazy to add on. I really don't have the mood to go into blogging now. Bye.

  

"A man who dares waste one hour of time has not discovered the value of life."

Mayday!

It's May already and starting have to a deep fear inside of me. I want to to go into SAJC badly and sometimes, I just have flashfowards, like when I'm collecting my results and breaking down into tears because I failed. I want to be in SA for 12 straight years, and not wanting this fairytale to end this year. I remembered the effort put in the gangshow was tremendous, but the results was shit. I'm putting in my blood, sweat and tears into this for something, not for someone or any valuable item. And if my  l1r5 is based on how hardworking I am, I would be in RJC already. I just hope the next 5 4 months will be put well together. There's not much time to make a difference.

Recently, I realise I have this demon inside of me. It is called anger. I just can't find myself able to control it when some situation arises. I remembered when I was in primary school, I got so pissed by some faggot that I punched him up. That loser cried. Luckily, I wasn't as hot-headed for the past 3 years or I would have gone to serious trouble. If you think I'm always a guy who always keep his cool, it's time for me to break that bubble. And I don't know, I like to provoke others but not when others do the same to me. I need a real attitude adjustment. Hopefully, I won't must not find trouble with a new loser I found in someone. The arrogance in him boils my blood and the devil is just waiting to be unleashed. Please... keep myself cool.

Okay, let's stop these emo talks and talk about what happened recently. Finished 2 subjects already, English was pretty fine, should be able to reach my target but as for Chinese, the same can't be said. Many people said it's 'A' level standard, but I won't agree. It is just that we lack practice, that's all. It's 30 days away from 'O' and it can't be a worse time to demoralise us. After MYE, it's just me and Chinese, no other subjects, and If I fail, I would just drop to CLB. I won't take the risk it to retake and possibly, fail again. o.O Haha, and guess what?! Physics and SS are on my birthday, woohoo! NOT! The 2 papers I dread most and least confidence in. Hopefully my birthday will play a factor in me doing well for these 2 subjects. Haha, like real. I got the confidence in my veins for everything, so it should be fine. Ohoh, and I want to gym and play soccer badly. Staying at home everyday to study and eat sucks, you can see the family pack again. GAHH!!!

Okay, shall finish up on differentiation and chem before I sleep. (:

3 more days to SIXTEEN!

30 more days to CHINESE 'O'!

And ouch, I accidentally cut my thumb while shaving.

f=ma, Energy cannot be destroyed or created, V1=V2=V3

Hey people, I think this will be the long and last post before the MYE. Time is limited and work is unlimited. But I'm not aiming for distinctions, to be honest. I just want to get my basics right. Simple, and having 4 months to improve on what is not done yet is enough. Today was a productive session, I finished Physics and did lots of amaths practice. Now working on history notes before I turn into bed. My birthday is 2 weeks away, no celebrations. Most probably I will throw a party next year, a small one. But, I think nobody actually remembers my birthday. So.... it's good to be left unnoticed. Oh oh, I have a wishlist too. I shall name them all, haha. =P

• Zinc Backpack
• Iphone
• Ipad
• Ipod
• Itouch
• White converse shoes
• White FBT (DON'T ASK ME WHY I WANT IT, I JUST THINK ITS SEXY)
• White top tights.
• Ten years series.(Yeah lah, I'm a nerd lah!)
• Adidas Watch
• Spongebob Squarepants Boxers.
• Heineken Singlet
• A card? Haha, this is the most thoughtful I think. (: 

Haha, if you give me a present, I will be grateful. Haha, I will be nice to you and remember, I will be legal then. ;)
Ah damn, I need to get off the comp. I want to ditch it, its too much of a distraction to me. Taking 20 minutes break and studying 40 minutes in an hour is pathetic, trust me. Fuck lah, I just want the time when the invigilator during my final paper says, ' stop writing.' And then all hell breaks loose. (:



Study date, anybody? Haha, that's all for now. ;)