Step Up!

As you guys know, I'm posted to SRJC. Sort of expected that JAE will put me there, but SR isn't that bad after all man. The cool OGLs, cheers, dance, games, and many more! SR's COP also dropped to 14, which is a massive improvement from last year. Everything was fine, till they made us learn and sing the school song. I don't know. Before that, I was quite high. Initiating teamwork among my OG to get us started. However, I just couldn't bear to sing a foreign anthem, it's just simply betraying my love for SA when my appeal results aren't out yet! Really felt busted when they forced us to sing, so had to excuse myself by lepaking at the canteen with another of my SA mate. Sorry sr, please understand.

Went straight to SAJC with Ruthran after second day of orientation to check the progress of our appeals. Somehow, we shared this same feeling man. Like we are actually back home when we walked pass the school gate. Unlike srjc, where we felt like aliens to the school. I really can feel the warmth and love. Seriously. Sadly, we will only know our appeal results during the cny eve period, which is quite long from today. Sigh. I just miss the people, environment, culture. It's just so different from srjc, which don't even have any sharing of stories during assembly or stuff. Just world apart.


Still got many feelings and thoughts, but can't express in words. I just hope the SAJC principal will kindly accept me. It's not that I hate sr, nonono. It's just that if I'm not in sa, something special will be taken away from me. Something in my blood, my mind. Body with srjc, spirit with sajc. Going to consistently pray to God, please. Up and On!

'God answer prayers in three ways: he says yes and gives what you want, he says no and gives you something better, he says wait and give you the best.' - Ruthran

reality is a dream.

My life is in a mess. Dreams shattered in a matter of seconds. Embarassment in the family. I'm just disgusted with myself. To think for one bloody minute I can get the desired results. This is just cruel. I don't deserve this. What's done is done. No turning back the clock and I can consider myself lucky since I am eligible for a jc. I do feel proud for those who did it superbly well, with 8 pts, 7 pts and even 6 pts. Well, to those who fared badly like me, I'll just continuing praying that things will work out fine for us and that this crisis will soon be gone.


Today, I realised that I don't need to be in sajc to excel or whatsoever. I have plenty of options laid out for me by god. I know he has something worth installed for me. Like what I learnt from sunday school, pleasure is secondary. It's okay. I will rise again. But I just felt like a big disgrace to my family, my dad received tons of call on the day itself, regarding my results. I'm just disheartened that he didn't smile. Oh well.

Will still appeal for sajc though. Even if my chances are VERY slim, and even if it's not successful, I have to accept it. I need to change. My maturity, methods, thoughts. I will be 17 this year. This really served as a good wake up call. Thanks Cambridge, but sometime soon, I do hope that you will tell yourself that 'enough is enough' to English.

This is not the end. There'e still light.

'With your hardwork, your foundation has already been laid there. You're one step ahead of the rest, and I'm sure you'll be very successful next time.' - Mr Koh Yong Mong

'I don't care about how we did in this exam, but what's more important are the times we put in the hardwork together, during Saturday lessons. Experiencing laughter and sadness together.' - Mr Koh Beng Chuan

I promise

New Year's Resolutions. I don't think I even had any last year. So I'll make them this year, so that at least I have goals to work for.  


I will......

• Be a better christian.
• Be less of an ass to others. So it's basically to smile more.
• Abs, and a BMI of around 20 or lower..
• Participate in the 10k run which is around in Oct/Nov.
• Be more of a family guy, will visit my relatives more if I can.
• Most importantly, that 2011 will be better than 2010.

But first first, I have to see what happens on 10 Jan and then see where I go. Hopefully SAJC. But at least a JC please. No matter how good or bad my results is, god certainly is sure that he had made the right choice for me. We'll see.