My life is in a mess. Dreams shattered in a matter of seconds. Embarassment in the family. I'm just disgusted with myself. To think for one bloody minute I can get the desired results. This is just cruel. I don't deserve this. What's done is done. No turning back the clock and I can consider myself lucky since I am eligible for a jc. I do feel proud for those who did it superbly well, with 8 pts, 7 pts and even 6 pts. Well, to those who fared badly like me, I'll just continuing praying that things will work out fine for us and that this crisis will soon be gone.
Today, I realised that I don't need to be in sajc to excel or whatsoever. I have plenty of options laid out for me by god. I know he has something worth installed for me. Like what I learnt from sunday school, pleasure is secondary. It's okay. I will rise again. But I just felt like a big disgrace to my family, my dad received tons of call on the day itself, regarding my results. I'm just disheartened that he didn't smile. Oh well.
Will still appeal for sajc though. Even if my chances are VERY slim, and even if it's not successful, I have to accept it. I need to change. My maturity, methods, thoughts. I will be 17 this year. This really served as a good wake up call. Thanks Cambridge, but sometime soon, I do hope that you will tell yourself that 'enough is enough' to English.
This is not the end. There'e still light.
'With your hardwork, your foundation has already been laid there. You're one step ahead of the rest, and I'm sure you'll be very successful next time.' - Mr Koh Yong Mong
'I don't care about how we did in this exam, but what's more important are the times we put in the hardwork together, during Saturday lessons. Experiencing laughter and sadness together.' - Mr Koh Beng Chuan
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